What happened?

I read my last blog (from April, Yikes!) and wonder, what happened to that blissed out version of myself? Where did she go?

Right now I am swimming in sick children, job stress, money issues and loneliness. I am so completely closed off from all my friends and the world right now. I'm leaving my job in a few weeks, so that stress will be reduced at the very least. I cry and cry often. I hate being this way. I want to be that Mom who is always happy, who gets dressed every day and does their hair and makeup even if they have no plans to leave the house at all. I want to keep up on my housework and take pride in my home and myself.
I am going to try to stop being my own worst enemy and stop being the person who brings me down.

An Update

I am fantastically awful about blogging regularly. I have the best intentions, but then I start to feel like nobody cares to hear about my day to day activities and I give up.

We moved February 19th from a cramped apartment in a city to a big, old house in a small town. For the first time ever my kids have a yard to play in. I feel incredibly blessed right now. I am caught up in domestic bliss right now. I own my first washing machine (no dryer, but I love my line dried clothes) I have a house that if company just showed up, I wouldn't be embarrassed to let them in.

This weekend I am going to attempt to make my own laundry detergent.

I am honestly, blissfully happy where I am. I have friends, I do things. I am no longer a hermit in my house. I exercise, I take Zumba classes. I walk the track.

I know in my heart that I am the best version of myself all the way around.