I have a problem with holding a grudge. Usually against Todd and some heinous crime he committed that he didn't really commit, or that he committed but I blew out or proportion because I am really good at that.
Last night he fell asleep on the couch at 9:00. I had been looking forward to spending time with him all day. Since he started working his second job third shift, the time we spend together is minimal. At first I was angry and I yelled at him to just go to bed and yelled more for his feeble protests. After he went to bed, I let go of the anger. He has been working 85 hour weeks, 6 days a week. He gets one full day off a week. That is it. I have been really trying to see things from his perspective instead of my own.
I am really working on being a more understanding wife, a less selfish one. It is really time to stop thinking about myself and to start being a good wife. Our marriage is solid already, good, even great at times. Everything can use some improvement though. Nothing is perfect.
I am letting go of the frustration. I am going to learn how to channel my loneliness into something so that I don't feel so sad. It's time to stop getting upset over things I can't change and focus on the things I can change.
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